pshh...

p.s.

i might not be able to update anymore soon since i might be going to a place without internet in the next frew days and im very busy. im coming back soon though, so i'll probably call

a bit more art, check the other post below first to understand

wait does this make me weird? that im drawing these kinds of things?. p.s. the second one was an ant /catepillar thingy

fifi

I have a little cousin named fifi (short for fiona), and i think she's the devil. She looks kinda like baby puppies when they're first born and blind, with their heads bobbling around awkwardly all the time because they're tryinng to see, but they can't becausae their eyes are like alien eyes glued shut. anyway, she's really stingy and kinda evil, but also "cute" in some abnormal ways, llike when she farts or plays wii. although, she has said things like "i see ghosts" or osmething. anwyay here are some pictures of here.

From America, with love

The first one is my holding a balloon and I think the other one is a dragon?? But I can't understand the secret message in the the title of your posts. I am not as smart as you are, or a hot. Speaking about hot, you look sooooooooo good in the picture of you that you had in your last post. You and your cute cc (thats code for butt).

Lately I've been having a hard time getting a good nights rest. So last night I slept in my own bed by myself and I got so relaxed! I still have my headache from yesterday, but its really small now. I dont know why I still have it though.... maybe its from mal nutrition!! Or from server lack of Connie Chang disorder!!!

Please come back and cure me.

And thank you for your pictures and drawings! Give me more.

initia(rt)al

guess what these are

initia(rt)al

guess what these are

a miniature museum

today i went to a creepy place with a lot of creepy miniature houses. here are the really super creepy pictures and some random ones



















































































































igtg now, im sad i miss you bye. more pics later

headache

During class all of a sudden my light headache that I had earlier got huge. I still have it now. Im going to go to bed to rest some. Goodnight I love you.

So nervous

Two more weeks of school and Im getting nervous about finals. If I can get an A in all three of my classes my gpa will be something like 3.875 which is basically 3.9 which will give me a really good chance of getting in. Im doing good, in my classes but Im just getting worried.

I fed the fish again today. He seems more lively than the last time I took care of him. But he still doesn't do much.

Hows your dad doing? Can he blumpkin yet? How are you holding up? I know I told you I would be working out everyday and swimming to get tan, but I havent :c. Too busy with school. But I did get slightly chubbier like you wanted. But its not too much, I still look pretty skinny. I think the next time I work out will be after my finals. But Ill be doing water polo so that will be good.

I had another dream with Twee Twee a while ago. This time she could talk and she told me she was happy. But then she had to go because some one was in trouble and I followed her to a construction site, then I kept dreaming but it wasnt about twee twee and I cant remember what happened anyways.



I was thinking about your name and if you write you initials it CC, it sort of looks like two cute butt cheeks.

Less than two weeks till you come back, if I knew the exact date I would have count down. I miss you and love you and miss you and love you!

Study Study is your buddy

How did your piano recital go? Did you awe and amaze then with your mad piano skillz (skills). When I first read your post, I thought you said your aunt wanted to hold a piano. Like actually lift a piano and that confused me.

Yesterday I did alot of physics studying. Today I will some more studying, Im going to learn about when things turn around and torque and stuff. Then at 6 Im going to study math with William. He dropped the class, but is still doing everything because hes going to have to take it again at Cal.

I love you, and I'll post again tonight.

piano

today we had a family reunion, and my aunt wanted to hold a piano recital afterwards. so they made me play piano, my hands were shaking. i miss you

connie ni yo may yo nan pung yo

This morning, i went hiking. it was really fun, and naturey. there were man made little rivers all over the mountain,a nd every few feet, there was a green spider with its web by the river. when noone was looking i tried to kill the spider by taking rocks and breaking the web so that it falls in the river, but then my aunt came so i stopped. after the hike we went to eat at a place that had aligators in the backyard. there is some spcial meal if you pay 100 dollars that includes alligator meat, pretty gross. During the lunch they were talking about boyfriends and girlfriends, and the my aunt said connie you must have a boyfriend. my ddad just came back from shinjoo, and my mom was next too me todayl, and they both turned their heads mto me andi was like "heheh....heh...no?hehehhehe" aand one of my cousins said "you hit the spot" or osmething weird. and the n it was awkward silence since it seemed my parents didn tknow i had a boyfriend or something. after that we went to watch an opera thingy, and on the busride back there were seats of two together, and two fo the cousins sat next to each other, and i thought the other guy cousin would sit next to me, but he went to another seat, and then my cousin moved back to sit with me since she felt bad for me, and the other cousin went to go sit with the guy coulsin, and he said "i dont need anyone to sit next ot me" and it was ...awkward. i'm getting bored of taiwan.
<3 nikalohdieon

Boring day

Today consisted mostly of studying c++ and working on my program. But I also had some breaks and watched tv. I started downloading a cartoon show I saw on nickelodean. Hopefully I wont get too distracted by it. I only have two more weeks of school yay! Which also means less than two weeks until you come back double yay!

I found a video from "Just for Laughs" I think its a little better than that girls being rude video you showed me.



My plan for tomorrow is to study physics then sunday is to study math and feed your fish! Hes still alive. I had another dream about Twee Twee a couple days ago. I had the window open and she flew in, but when I went to get her she flew out. But she came back again and this time she stayed.

I hope your having fun now. When you get back we can play multiplayer ds games!!!! (Im just kidding) (because we have other fun things to do) (but playing gameboy is fun so lets give it a change) (but only if you want to) (but even if you dont lets try it once) (Ill go easy) (not that you need me to).

Keep writing posts! I miss you

sorry

I'm still so busy so i can't write that much. my cousins are living in the same house as us now, and they 're the ones who pull out their hair. i got a nintendo ds yesterday! and it already has some games on it, and a chip wher eyou can dowload off the interent. Tocday im going hiking, and ikm nervous for next year :( i have a feeling i wont do too well. oh yeah i ,eep forgetting to tell you, dont worry about my graduation present, think about it after finals k/? (im not just "saying" it to remnind you either)

Pasta and Bees

Today for lunch I was going to get a burger from the barbecue they have on campus some times, but then I saw they had paste and shrimp. I of course remembered that you have told me how it was one of your favorite foods so I obviously had to try it. Because we are the same person and what you like I like.

But to be honest, I was not particular fond of the meal. It might have been that this once was just not that good. It was plain and the pasta had no sauce, and the shrimp had no sauce but it made me think about you so I was happy. But there was some one who liked it. Bees. I sat down on a small circular table and in less that two minutes a bee was flying around my food.

First I tried to shoo it away with my hands. But since it didn't go I tried using my fork to scare it, but it was too brave. So I had to run away. I moved to another table, this one was shaped rectangularily but thats not important. But as soon as I sat down the bee was back. This time he brought two friends with him. How rude to bring guests to something he wasnt invited too. I moved again. This time since there were no more tables available to the ground by a tree. But the bee would not persist, he must have been an amazing detective to be able to follow me. Or it could of been because each time I moved, I was too lazy to walk farther than a few feet. So this time I moved quite a bit more than my previous attempts and no bees followed me. Although I did spy it flying around trying to look for me. I showed him that Im smarter than a bee.

Good thing your schedule worked out. Im glad I was able to help you. I love you and cant wait for to come back.

so tired

I'm so tired, these past few days i've been so busy with random activities. like i took my little cousin to a water park, and i had to push her around in a little baby boat thing designed for babies, but she was s o heavy the water kept filling up, and now my back aches. I'm up at 4:45 here becuase i need to sign up for cclasses at 2 p.m. in america, which is 5 am here.. and earlier i got up at 3:56 because i set the alarm wrong =( i called you at 7:30 ish to ask if you could help me sign up incase the internet doesn't work, but i guses you were busy. i called your house too. I'm so annoyed and sad in this place, and i dont know what i should sign up for next year. could you check schedule.berkeley.edu and tell me if you see things that say "fall, spring, summer" like giant sections? bcause when i do that, it's gone, but its supposed to be there. just check for me please? aiyah taiwan sucks. goodluck studying

So Busy

Sorry for the late blog, I fell asleep studying. I haven't eaten dinner or breakfast and I'm hungry. I going to be so busy, I have two more weekends before finals so I'm really going to start working hard.

I didnt do well on my quiz today, but its ok because I can drop it. But afterwards we had a fun lab called BALLISTIC PENDULUM. It sounds cooler if you say it louder. Basically we had a spring gun and ball and shot it at things. Im going to go eat lunch now, I love you alot and miss you more.

up on the rooftop

ivebeen living in the 11th floor of my aunt's apartment. On the 4th floor lives a dog that was found from outside, his name is nio nio. which means princess, or another meaning is sour sour.he wanders up and dwont the stairs and even goes to the rooftop to visit his rabbit friends. i feel so bad for the rabbitrs, they both seem so dehydrated and have no space to move around. the poop hasn't been cleaned for a while too..there used to be a pig there too but the cage is empty so i guess it became pork.

You have computer?

I'm glad I'm posting regularly now or I might of missed your posts. I got super excited that you left a comment on my last blog and when I click to see it, its random words like plaque and leaves. Then I realized you were just correct me... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH COME BACK NOW! You always make me happy and smile and I'm smiling now as I type this because Im thinking about you.

I guess its a good thing that your not here because Ive been so busy, but I want to be busy with you. I want to hang out with you. I want to be you. I took the garbage can back in today, and I checked and it was empty now. So I am not a total failure. And your fish is still alive.

Today I talked with my computer teacher. Hes the teacher to my online class so this is like the first time I really talked with him. Hes really kind and helpfull!

I have a quiz tomorrow and day after (tuesday and wednesday) So Im going to go study some now. And thank you for your poem (I know its not a poem, but I like to read it as if it was)

I LOVE YOU

P.S. here is the site I made in my website class. http://www.steve-tatum.com/j/ the content is not too interesting, just from wikipedia, but the basic idea was how to design with buttons and stuff.

P.P.S I love you more!

insomnia:c

I can't seem to fall asleep now.
It's hard to press the space bar quietly
My mom is asleep, i shouldn't wake her up
I put plastic bags under my bedsheet since I'm wearing
the same baggy pink underwear that i drenched in pee a week and 3 days ago
Better safe than sorry
Better that i lost the bird than you
We forgot the toothpaste and
brushed our teeth with salt
It's 12:34 a.m.

I always get confused converting time
100 chinese yen = 3.3 or so american dollars
I miss you
a lot, sorry if i make you
sad
I don't mean to be a party
poo
per 24-7

this isnt a poem i just cant type a lot since
the spacebarissoloud

I went to a local convenient store by myself to buy pads
for my mom
I was in charge of packing pads
I forgot to bring them
I saw fake abercrombie
and saw fake rana
jk
blumkin

my dad couldnt get blumpkin anytime soon
he's still on medication that makes him diarreah
i think blumpkin is only for solid poo
is diarreah more like pee out of the butt?
what if poo came out of vaginas
or urethras
owwee daddy urethra go ouchie
waowao small

am<3ir!

p,s, i beat minesweeper ^=^

July 22

Today I didn't do too many interesting things. I woke up around 10 o clock and went to eat break fast. I poured the cereal but I noticed there was no milk, no real milk at least. There was some yogurt milk thing my dad drinks but I think its sour and gross so I decided just to wait to eat food later.

After that I went to your house to remove your garbage can so I wont be a total failure (I also fed your fish today so dont worry). When I got to your house I looked outside by the shed for the garbage can but it wasnt there so I brilliantly deduced that it was in your yard. I tried to figure out how to open the door. First I tried looking for the lever thing on the left side, but the only thing there was the hinge. So I assumed it had to be on the right side. I looked there but I couldnt find it either. I tried reaching really far, but I still couldn't quite get it. After I thought I tried everything I just lifted myself over the fence. Obviously I didnt try everything because there was no hinge and all I had to do was push the door.

I took the garbage outside, but I first checked to see if anything was inside. There was alot of leaves. When I was pulling it I kept fealing something wet drop on my leg. I guessed it was some gross decomposing leaf water so I just decided to keep going and not find out what it is so I wont gross my self out. After I was done I went to safeway to get some milk, baggets and moutwash so I can fight plack that leads to the gum disease gingivatus.

After I got home I ate breakfast and watched tv for a while (I wont say how long because then youll get angry when I say I dont have any free time but it was longer than an hour). After I went to study physics. Im so confused right now but its ok, I can learn it before the quiz. While I was studying I fell asleep.

I woke up and studied some more. Then I got a cal from you!! Happy, but then I got kind of sad after talking with you :c . But I always prefer talking to you than not so call me more often! Im going to go take a shower now then go study some more. I love you alot

Short Post

I hope your dad gets better. I'm really busy right now because I have a midterm to study for so I'll make a longer post later.

I love you

somewhere around the butt hole

here are some pictures from the past few days of places i visited:
1.a place called egg-water
2. my parents college "taida"


























this man was an icecream throwning turk a temple

egg water still.
My dad has been living in shin joo, while i live in taipei with my mom. I just found out today, while my mom was at work and i was in my aunt/uncles car, that my dad's getting surgery around the butt tomorrow, something intestine related, like he poos his intestines out or osmething. you better not laugh,. He's going to be hospitalized for four days. I don't think this surgery is very serious or life-threatening, it's jsut a really scary thought. when i heard about this, right after my aunt asked me what we did with the bird, and i said we gave it to a friend to take care of. She then started saying how those birds live until 20, since she had 2, and i became really sad=/. yesterday my grandpa asked my dad how the bird was, and my dad said ok. i think we all have denial problems, or maybe just telling less is better. I was depressed today thinking about twee twee, and then i got angry again. why did that truck have to come, why did i not tell you what to do, why didn't you listen to hidayat, why did i buy a bird, why didn't i clip its wings, why did my mom have foot fungus? I feel like after the whole bird situation, my mom and i don't get along as friends anymore. it's more like mother-daughter cold version. hopefully that'll change in time.
Today i went to the world's tallest building with the fastest elevator ever in taipei. it's called taipei 101. I went with my uncle but now i don't have time to post pictures, i have to go visit my dad now. i don't think there's internet there, but we'll see. i think i'll be there for four days or so, can yo keep posting? I might call you if i'm there too long and don't have internet, but don't expect a call any certain day. KEEP POSTING i love you. bye. IGTG I love you <3 byebye talk to you later.

I pushed it to the limit

I pushed it to the limit. I went to the danger zone. I was standing on the razors edge... and I cut myself. My second program was due today for c++ due at 11:45PM. It was a program where you would input numbers, then the program would see if it was odd or even, then find the average of all the odds and evens. I thought I had everything done so I started testing it.

I put in 2, and it said my total even average is 2. Good that works. I put in 10, and it tells me my total even average is 6. I check in my head... ten plus two is twelve, divide that by two and I get six. Nice I think to myself this is working. I put in another 24, and it says my total average is 12. I check in my head two plus ten plus twenty-four is thirty-six. thirty six divided by two is eighteen. Good, ---- wait no. my program says the answer is 12, but my head says 18!!! Im running out of time. Only ten minutes left I have to fix this fast.

So I restart the program and try again. The first two numbers give me the right answer but the third one gives me an error again! Whats wrong?!! I look frantically at my code but I cant find the mistake. Five minutes left. I start to panic. I keep looking and changing and retyping my code. Oh oh 3 minutes left.

I decide to compile and run the program one more time.First number works. Second number works. Third number.... still different than one I think it should be. Then I realize... (and youve probably already realized) for the third number Ive been dividing the total by two, when I should be dividing by three. NOOOOOOO IM SO STUPID. Quick Amir, copy the code. Quick login to the website. SUBMIT SUMBIT!!!

Submitted Jul 16, 2007 11:46 pm - late

NOOOOOO. The worse part is that its due at 11:45 pm. Thats right, one minute late. ARAEGGASD.

ohwell

The rat in your picture looks like it wants to give you a hug. So you can imagine that each time a car is dricing over it, its actually giving it a hug. I want to give you a hug, you can even run over me if you want. I am your flat rat.

I love you, and I hope your vacation is getting better. Muah Muah.

flat rat

I'm now living with my mothers side of the family, but earlier I lived with my dad's dad. aka my grandpa. It’s weird how some things have changed, and others haven’t. I still don’t get along with my grandpa—not to a horrible extent, it’s not like we are intentionally cold or cruel to the other, he just seems indifferent to me. That’s a scary thought for me, since I’m used to the stereotypical happy grandpa who would give anything in the world to hug his grand-daughter/son. He’s my only live grandparent, and the only one I’ve really seen a lot. I have my regrets—I should have been nicer to him when he came to America to live with us, but instead of trying to bond, I always spoke in English in front of him since he couldn’t understand it, and I gave him mean faces when he told me to sit on the broken chair during dinner( we have four chairs, and one of them is not part of the set, is especially wobbly, and has drawings all over it, it hink I did the drawings, so I’ll take the blame for that) I haven’t come here for a while, and the only thing he has said to me thus far has been 1. Why don’t you buy some bread?, and 2. Are you going to refill your rice? but the other day, before i left for taipei, he gae me 2000 taipei money = 60$. and my aunt gavae me a 1000 american dollars graduation red pocket.

My mom spotted a rat the other day on my grandpa's street. It wasn’t a normal rat, it was a rat carpet, flat and fuzzy, about a centimeter high and smushed to the ground. My mom and I kept trying to hypothesize the order of events that allowed the rat to become a lifeless carpet. Did he die on the street, and then get run over by one of those giant trucks carrying pineapples? Or was he trying to cross the street when a car ran it over. Or did a motor cycle go over it? Or maybe some crazy guy who enjoys flattening live animalssmushed it and then threw it out the window like a Frisbee?

right now im trying to figure out how to upload photos.nvm it works now.

















your last post made me smile, laugh, and my eyes got watery. i guess i cried?

I have to go swimming with my aunt now. I love you <3 i'll post more pleasant photos later on.

I cant resist you

I studied math from around 6 to 8: 30. It was long, but not too bad we got alot done. After I went to Chipotle to eat dinner because I knew my dad w ould not have anything for me when I get home and I have to fatten my self up for you. I ate a chicken burrito with extra toasted bread, black beans hot and mild salsa, plus corn, cheese and I think the last piece was lettuce.

On the way back I was listening to the radio and all of a sudden I missed you so much. I really wanted to see you and give you a huge hug and hold your hand and be with you right away. It was so intense. I don't know what triggered it, but I want you bad (to the bone). Sorry for that. But Im bad! (sorry again)

Im still angry at myself so its ok for you to be angry at me. And I still love myself so its ok for you to still love me. And I still love you. Im going to go to bed early today.

Goodnight, my princess.

my aunt's house

right now i'm at my aunt's house. in the morning, we dropped of my cousin and my mom off at their work, and then they drove me to a flower market. I fogot to bring my camera, but it was pretty nice( i think your ddad would like it) they let me choose one potted flower, and i picked an orchid. Then they let me choose a bunch of flowers just to put in a vase, and i chose flowers that looked like the ones you got me for my piano recital. I really wanted to get sunflower though, but the ones from the piano recital smelled better and they wanted me to get it to make the house smell good. later today at 2:00, i'm going to go swimming with my aunt again, hopefully everyone there is not so wrinkly or old or ugly.jk everyone is beautiful.
I'm pretty sad/melancholy ish right now, i wish i could stay alone in my apartment, but my aunt/uncle mean well by forcing me to stay there because they want to watch me. I just want some time alone, to just relax since these past few days have been jam packed with activities. I've gotten so many mosquito bites, and many more bottles of mosquito bite medecine, i guess i'll bring some extra back the the california. Everytime i want to type bite, i always want to instictively type "bight", i dont know why. every other - ight- sound is spelled with -ight instead of ite. theres light, sight, tight, might, height, slight, fight, right, and then... bite. strange. I forgot to bring my camera, =/ but i'll post up other pictures later. heres a title for one of them - flat as a rat. coming soon.

p.s. I'm still mad at you
p.p.s. mhm i still like you

July 14

I went to a dreamweaver class. It was designed for teachers who want to make websites for their classes so I was the youngest person there. During break I went to burger town with a person who was from north korea (or vietnam) but I dont think north vietnam exists anymore? When I got home I took a small break then studied physics. I still miss Twee Twee and Im still sorry.

Unlucky Friday July 13

Friday the 13th is really an unlucky day for me. I lose Twee Twee and the trust of your family. I'm really sad I lost her and I tried very hard to find her, but couldn't.

I am so sorry and sad. :c